Cross dressing tips!!

It's a natural human tendency to be curious of what could it be if not what it is at present.........and to live in that illusion is a bliss!!


I recommend you don't flip to the next blog as of yet, thinking that if you are not one cross dresser you can ignore this. dual meanings my friend!!
So do you find men who dress up as women kitsch, oddballs ,outrageously kinky? Next time you make a practical joke on one of  your self confessing friend stop and think. Has there never been atime when you have changed from your natural skin to an unnatural ,transient hide? not just changed into it but found it more comforting and somehow like a resort from the usual self......huh?
believe me , its absolutely natural to be somebody you are not or you just cant be in most situations, its like escaping with an evasive answer to the circumstances rather than coming out in the open( we do that rarely).

what do i have here to offer in today's confession.... certain tips to cross dress..... This is one trait of mine that I am not guilty of . I can safely proclaim myself the queen of this art as I have been successful in creating a completely misunderstood(or lets say incomprehensible) alter ego.
 When it comes to my social circle I have safely  classified people in different radii...and its not the subconscious classification, the kind that we come across in simple human psychology, its the more complicated than it seems.... strangers, acquaintance, friends, real friends and then of course the best friends.......... perplexed?
Its not that I am telling you to become a hypocrite or an absolute fakolina,(I abhor that kind), Its more about your comfort level and how to draw a line between self and all that is uncalled for and it saves you a lot of unwanted troubles of saying hollow hellos, waving frail byes and smiling unwillingly......... you don't have to do that. In short its about clearing the clutter, cutting the crap!!
Socializing i believe has become a stress of sorts, its an absolute mania and hell it does matter when you are a bit of a popular figure in your own small circle....lets say like a lesser known celeb....the prettiest girl in the group, the talented band guitarist, the smart charming event organizer,the impeccable leader ......generally with such a pseudo status comes the need for a pseudo attitude that fits the bill. There's this itch to perfectly fit into the cast that we have made out of external factors and internal insecurities.... 'the crafted image' and then you start behaving as people would expect you to.
you dress up as they require you to , so on a moody blues day when you would rather get out of your bed and drive straight to college for the sake of it, you find yourself being dragged  to the closet to fish out the best pair of jeans, the branded tee , haggardly search for your glares , put them on along with a fake smile and start the drama that lasts the whole day!!...perrrr...fect, and then you become so comfortable with that image that you confuse it with the real you and that's when the whole trouble begins...so you see cross dressing can actually grow on you and then entangle you in its mess..

I have been doing this for ages now....in fact i guess I have been doing this since kindergaden , why and how ? it's another story but since I have been hanging around for so long I got an insight into the complications and the consequences a tad bit earlier than most of us. Adolescence taught me how to walk out of the mess while child hood had actually pushed me into it, more so because childhood was not much of a dream and I discovered more of self in the troubled years( not in my case).
so lets stop yapping about my personal  miseries,( just because I am confessing doesn't mean that you have to know the whole story :p)
The Dos and the Dont s:

first of all, keep one thing in mind: 'you are not as important as you think you are'... dress down your ego a bit and let go, It doesn't have to be all perfect all the time, so act a little natural (oxymoron , huh?);)...  more than half the people would not even remember your name if you disappear out of their sights for a week or two.

next , remember the purpose of wearing that artificial attire, its ephemeral ecstasy and content and if you are felling any other way, just drop it there and then.obviously its like wed,, you can get high on it once in a while but ultimately it might just be fatal. don't get addicted.

As soon as you star being extra pally to people who you don't even remember seeing the last time, back off, do a reality check,  the most important factor on the list:' Am I sacrificing something more important ?' if the answer is no , get back and start it from where you left it else just excuse yourself and run away without looking back (you need not excuse yourself if you don't feel like it :) )

Once in a while go to the people who know who you are and get a dose of reality, the real friends, the best friends, siblings, parents..or who ever you think it is who might just pump out the extra air in your head :p

take complements as they come your way, avoid being driven by them, praise and flattery need to be segregated from each other.

Ultimately find time for your own little indulgence, your time, your hobbies , your ideas, introspect. If you are a rock band guitarist you don't have to abhor old classic Bollywood tunes, or just because you are the tom boy doesn't have to mean that you have to hate love stories or that you cant dress girly once in a while. try not to typify yourself, leave that inane job to others around you.

Well that's all, Its not a vice to create an image in fact a very genuine and intellectual man once told me,"humans wear three skins epidermis, meso dermis and en dermis......... I prefer meso dermis" ;)...

so now you can go and experiment a bit, ready get set, cross dress :D

Men.......Women ...hmm.....

There is tide in the affairs of men,

which taken at the floods leads on to fortunes,

Omitted, all the voyage of their life,

Is bound in shallows and miseries.

                                          Shakespeare

That's a sane advise Mr.Shakespeare, and yes all my lovely ladies ...adhere to it. Yes, Yes we are the young liberated, independent women and we don't really need men to buy us our jewels or pay the rent and keep up with the groceries. we are no longer liabilities and men are not assets ....or maybe they are....but why should we not call them accessories.

all said and done.... the stronger we become the more we need someone to make us feel like women, so while we may scoff and walk away with an airy gesture if a stranger pulls the door for us or calls for the cab , but we do love to see the chivalrous gentleman in the man we call our own. Well i shouldn't forget to mention that its a nice way of sprucing the male ego and giving men a reassurance of sorts.

along with the natural and biological ones, this is one reason why the sexes have not become redundant to each other,... 'YOU pat my back, I'll pat yours'

With this kind of an equation , its easy to live unattached and in a frivolous relationship, no strings attached, no luggage,. It doesn't even matter if you are looking for a companionship which means a a little more salt and pepper than the usual in the recipe for a perfectly platonic relationship. take it a step further and you need much more than that static equilibrium...a dynamic one. 

Men would more than love to take a bimbo by their sides...as they call them ...'trophy wives' the shiny display material which would win them the 'lucky bastard ' tag among their peers. There is an exception of a few.. like the other day a friend told me how he would be stimulated by a woman with some grey matter in her head rather than the myriad hues on the front lobe of either side of the brain..(read make up :p). But most woman want a little more than a fat juicy chicken ready to be feasted upon, obviously there are exceptions in this case too. while all the surveys may tell you that money is a complete turn on, believe me, its not true. If that was the case then the nouveaux riches with loads of fortune and flashy cars and the taste for absolutely crass songs that define women as woofers(sic) would have had a bevy of beauties making a bee line for them 

So ladies and gentlemen keep reading...

Well, if I understand my species right barring a few possible diversions the first and the foremost thing required by women is respect.. for what she is, who she is and what she wants to make out of it. The next step is well obviously...not to take anything that the other person does for granted, and be able to appreciate the efforts and the labour thats put in. Men should learn to live with female angst and should stop complaining that women are losing their femininity, remember we were pulled in to the current by the extremely competitive world where this whirlpool theory of survival came to being...(all thanks to you guys :/).
All the terms put straight ladies? well, here's your part: We are still women and we realize (or should realize ) that the onus of creating a balanced world is on us. we have an innate power to mellow down whatever is stark, that we have been blessed with this ability to forgive. We chose to step into the male dominated world and establish ourselves but to lose our own identity to them would not be right.We can definitely walk in their shoes for several miles but they can't don our stilletoes and exude the grace , the poise that we can. so stick to it.

and as for the first few lines...the catch in today's confession is...know what you want. A last bit of advise that i wanted to drop for the girls out there but it won't really harm if men take a hint too.We all need love but what is the price that we are ready to pay for it?
If you know yourself then probing into the kind of men we want would be easy. We all have that charismatic Mr. right in our thoughts yet we tend to get lost with the wrong ones...?..Accept it.. there's no perfect man on this planet, what makes them perfect is our love for them...and well as I said ..it comes for a little price.
so mark the risks and sail your ship into the sea with the right tide... and then the journey would be ever so enchanting with a few rough waves thrown in( I guarantee the rough waves too;) ).......

and to the gentlemen out there, read this all over again...if you are smart then this might not bruise your egos much and you might find the right tides in there for you ;D

Love Triangles

The king , the princess and the knight.........

I haven't really dived into the recent romances that have appeared in print, (though i confess to being a die hard romantic and have had my share of classic love stories as a teenager which was pretty recent). it is just that I would rather invest my precious reading time in discovering the realms of philosophy, history or some political drama , and if knowledge is not the pursuit of my reading then it has to be the sheer beauty of the work that inspires me to appreciate it by reading it further. Not that their haven't been some great romances in the recent times, in fact both the Hollywood and the Indian film industry continuously supply us with chick flicks and rom coms that capture the effervescent love with a so called fresh perspective and that's precisely the reason why reading one doesn't really seem like an appealing idea.

Anyhow the absolute girl inside often emerges and takes her share of space in my mind from the practical head that I always think of myself as. so recently when i happened to stumble upon a book in my younger siblings closet I couldn't help but flip a few pages, by the review it seemed like a regular for our generation, a teen drama entangles in a fantastic fable mixed with plenty of supernatural elements . I realized that it had also been turned into a series which was quite a hit with all my female friends at college. moreover the cover was not really ominous with tell tale signs of unbridled passion and it seemed to be a good frivolous read. I admit with  a slight discomfort that I had followed the Twilight Saga with an interest that would be termed deeper than the superficial curiosity that I had feigned while buying the first copy.Thus while reading a book that seemed to be on similar lines I could not help but draw a parallel between the two. other than the supernatural mumbo jumbo what i found common to the two was 'a love triangle'.a complicated relationship that was between the protagonists . substantial characters entwined in an emotional mess along with the supernatural clutter.I really thought that originality had come to an end not just with those who write but even those who lap up the same old wine in a new bottle.I scoffed with an intellectual's pride over the masses taste for fresh ideas and originality or the lack of it.

Later that week in the quest of a more insightful reading experience, I started reading a best seller by one of my favourite bestselling author. he also mentioned the concept of multiple soul mates and after a certain point the whole story seemed to revolve around the theory. (sic)
here I should mention at the risk of sounding a little orthodox (I don't really believe that though, I feel like I'm one of the fantastic characters from a fable who are rare to keep the sanctity of a belief in a skewed world :p)
that I still believe in the concept of one true love and there is this strong need to belong to a single person and have an unadulterated love with a deep and lasting meaning.

I was pretty disturbed at this strange phenomena of triangles all around me.the fact that one of my friends confided into me about one of her personal experiences of the same sort and that the author whom i revered for his works also corroborated the multiple soul mates theory was of no help.
so for the next few days i snuggled into my comfort with a few old classics, and took respite that Austen, who had been quite a rebel for her times justified my view to an extent... one life,one love :)
but then it seemed even classics had to mess with my ideas, I discovered Camelot, the tale where King Arthur shares the princess with the valiant knight Lancelot.....no running away from clandestine affairs ..sigh : /

the other day , I sat with a cuppa with the dear friend of mine and she asked a question quite nonchalantly, just the random discussion you have with your girlfriends, that make no sense, just like that.

the question was a hypothetical situation in which I had a choice of saving any one from my friend and my lover from a possible life threatening situation. stupid stuff, I answered nonchalantly with an equally stupid answer, that seeing both in such a situation, the faint hearted person that I am I might just beat em both to the gates of hell .
later I thought about it and realized that it was quite a dilemma, they both meant the world to me and secretly I prayed that i would never have to chose.

that's when I realized that the multiple soul mate theory might just have some substance.There can exist a few triangles or even squares, pentagons and all possible polygons. I still wont jump into an illicit affair, though I might just be a part of a triangle already.;)

SO here I am sitting with a book that seems to be headed in the same direction and I would just sit back and smile wryly as I read it till the end .......(wink wink).